I had PTSD for decades from years of severe molestation as a child in the US Deep State’s ultra-wicked MK-ULTRA program, founded by Henry Kissinger and other German Jews.

It affected me in many ways, most notably via terrible and recurrent nightmares and insomnia until I got professional counseling in 2003. I have not had one single nightmare since then, and am now, in fact, at my calmest when crisis erupts, as per my Marine Corps training. It is called “the combat mindset.”

What all those without PTSD do not understand is that the nightmare seems totally real — it is a vivid reliving of the horror —  and thus completely retraumatizes you, even if the events it refers to stopped happening decades ago. It is like picking the scab off a wound — over and over and over again.

Both my first and second wives witnessed me going through these alarming dreams (1976-89 for the first wife and 2002-04 for the second) and were awakened from the sound sleep they needed by my screaming, thrashing, and in several instances, literally going on the offensive. I got out of bed in a kind of militant sleep-walking, grabbing anything among household items which could shield me and/or be used as a lethal weapon, and went through the house on a search-and-destroy mission, looking for my attacker in order to kill him.

Today, these are always on me or nearby.

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Let any government agent, such as the self-designated “Harriet Maki,” and “Turd Ferguson,” who posts comments on this website to try to intimidate me, and arrogantly reveals he is tapping our phones and bugging Margaret’s house in violation of the Fourth Amendment, remember that my mindset has not changed one iota about

–killing my attackers, and

–my hatred for those who harm, threaten, rape, torture and kill innocent little children (and adults).

BLOOD PASSOVER Ariel Toaff 2007

Who is Ariel Toaff? Just son of the Grand Rabbi of Rome, and a professor at Bar-Ilan University in Tel Aviv, Israel.

He proved that, yes, some Jews have always kidnapped and ritually murdered white children (and adults), and slowly drained their blood out via up to one hundred scalpel wounds, and then used the adrenalin-enriched blood of the fully conscious torture victim to make adrenochrome (to prolong the life of old jew billionaires) and as a powder in their matzoh bread.

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Come after me, filthy kikes — and I will kill you. If I die, I leave this shithole world you have made out of our once wonderful white nations.

“For a thousand years,” and I will return again and again until the job is completed. I have not had PTSD since 2003, 16 years ago, just a calm, determined hatred for Talmudism. 

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…..the Horner case

The tragic 1948 story of Sally Horner and her kidnapper, the hooknosed Frank La Salle, who was apparently not a Deep State agent, just a filthy creep — so they did nail him.

The newspapers wrote a lot about it. The story is absolutely horrendous, and I get choked up just typing this. Parents, watch your kids.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Florence_Sally_Horner

Excerpts:

Florence Sally Horner (April 18, 1937 – August 18, 1952) was a girl abducted by serial child molester Frank La Salle in 1948. The kidnapping, captivity and repeated rapes of Horner allegedly made her the prototype for the title character of Vladimir Nabokov’s Lolita.

In March 1948, 10-year-old Horner attempted to steal a five-cent notebook from a Woolworths in Camden, New Jersey. Frank La Salle, a 50-year-old mechanic, caught her stealing, told her that he was an FBI agent, and threatened to have her sent to a reform school unless she reported to him periodically. In June 1948, he abducted Horner. 

[….] Death: Horner died in a car accident near Woodbine, New Jersey, on August 18, 1952.^[1] As the Associated Press reported on August 20, 1952: “Florence Sally Horner, a 15-year-old Camden, N.J., girl who spent 21 months as the captive of a middle-aged morals offender a few years ago, was killed in a highway accident when the car in which she was riding plowed into the rear of a parked truck.”

This is yet another example out of thousands why all sex-crime convictions should carry a death sentence. The people who commit these crimes can’t be cured. The authorities know this, yet continue to let them loose to prey on women, girls and little boys.

…..What is PTSD?

Overview: Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) is a mental health condition that’s triggered by a terrifying event — either experiencing it or witnessing it. Symptoms may include flashbacks, nightmares and severe anxiety, as well as uncontrollable thoughts about the event. [not in the advanced MK-ULTRA program called “Manchurian Candidates” — it is blocked out.]

[source: https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/post-traumatic-stress-disorder/symptoms-causes/syc-20355967]

Most people who go through traumatic events may have temporary difficulty adjusting and coping, but with time and good self-care, they usually get better. If the symptoms get worse, last for months or even years, and interfere with your day-to-day functioning, you may have PTSD.

Getting effective treatment after PTSD symptoms develop can be critical to reduce symptoms and improve function.

TSD symptoms are generally grouped into four types: intrusive memories, avoidance, negative changes in thinking and mood, and changes in physical and emotional reactions. Symptoms can vary over time or vary from person to person.

Intrusive memories

Symptoms of intrusive memories may include:

-Recurrent, unwanted distressing memories of the traumatic event
–Reliving the traumatic event as if it were happening again (flashbacks)
-Upsetting dreams or nightmares about the traumatic event
-Severe emotional distress or physical reactions to something that reminds you of the traumatic event
-Avoidance

Symptoms of avoidance may include:

-Trying to avoid thinking or talking about the traumatic event
-Avoiding places, activities or people that remind you of the traumatic event [for me, anytime I see a human being dragged or sliding along the pavement, as after a motorcyle accident, I still feel something]
-Negative changes in thinking and mood

Symptoms of negative changes in thinking and mood may include:

-Negative thoughts about yourself, other people or the world
-Hopelessness about the future
-Memory problems, including not remembering important aspects of the traumatic event [which is the whole goal of the very extreme Manchurian program]
-Difficulty maintaining close relationships
-Feeling detached from family and friends
-Lack of interest in activities you once enjoyed
-Difficulty experiencing positive emotions
-Feeling emotionally numb
-Changes in physical and emotional reactions

Symptoms of changes in physical and emotional reactions (also called arousal symptoms) may include:

-Being easily startled or frightened
-Always being on guard for danger
-Self-destructive behavior, such as drinking too much or driving too fast
-Trouble sleeping
-Trouble concentrating
-Irritability, angry outbursts or aggressive behavior
-Overwhelming guilt or shame

For children 6 years old and younger, signs and symptoms may also include:

-Re-enacting the traumatic event or aspects of the traumatic event through play
-Frightening dreams that may or may not include aspects of the traumatic event
-Intensity of symptoms

PTSD symptoms can vary in intensity over time. You may have more PTSD symptoms when you’re stressed in general, or when you come across reminders of what you went through.

For example, you may hear a car backfire and relive combat experiences [or attend a Fourth-of-July fireworks display and freak out].

Or you may see a report on the news about a sexual assault and feel overcome by memories of your own assault.

[I have no conscious memories, because it was the Manchurian program. But I become deeply moved by seeing a child cry who was not just misbehaving and got punished.]

I thank the gods/angels that I know more than anyone else on this planet from personal experience how wicked the jews are, which is unimaginable, and that PTSD forced me to examine more deeply the nature and cause of  evil.

(As the book Unshackled by Kathleen Sullivan lays out, among the very worst things the Jews do, and designed to “short out” the brain and create “dissociation,” is forcing children to torture and kill other children or be tortured and killed themselves. Another is to make a mother kill her own child or, upon her natural refusal, be punised by being forced to watch as it is slowly tortured, screams frantically, and then is killed.)

MK-ULTRA and “Unshackled — A Survivor’s Story of Mind Control” by Kathleen Sullivan

Torture also made me study the nature of the psychopathic personality.

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https://johndenugent.com/english/they-hacked-my-psychopaths-in-power-article-here-it-is-again/

Henry Kissinger, one of the premier monsters of our time, is seen here photographing a child, Nicole Cianci, who later killed herself using heroin, (http://www.abc6.com/story/17632537/nicole-cianci-daughter-of-buddy-cianci-dies) …. With his hand on her head is her father, the mayor of Providence, Rhode Island, Buddy Cianci, who later did five years for extortion; next to them is my father, James Waddell Nugent.

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Torture induced me to discover the non-marijuana, non-drug ways to overcome PTSD, such as the spiritual teachings of Eckhart Tolle.