Spiritual reading — sit quietly and DO listen to that higher you; the day I hated myself for

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September 18

Another day where we put the program in your hands! Practice, dears. That is what you need if you are to become masters.

Sit with your sense of the day and what it is telling you. Sit and feel into what is energetically without and then what is energetically within.

Sit with those and discover the path for your day as you bring them together and find the confluence.

Trust yourself and follow your own guidance, whatever it may be. If it turns out to be flawed, you can note that at day’s end. But begin with the assumption, which we’d start with, that you are hooked in and an open conduit for the truth around and within.

Be bold and don’t fear.

You are guided and very much loved. — E. West

…..A time I did not listen

I have related how a very pretty gal, early 30s, came over to me one day in the Boston subway. Shapely, pretty, with dark-blond hair, bright blue eyes, of German background from Ohio, so nice a personality, and she spoke with an incredibly melodious voice. (She did voice-overs for Arnold Communications up the street, one of the biggest ad agencies on earth.)

She reminded me of Kirsten Dunst, who also is of German background.

Though I really liked her, and was amazed that such an attractive woman would come on to me, a male stranger, on the Blue Line in very unfriendly Boston, I gave her the brush-off (gently), because I was already quasi-dating online an Austrian gal.

I just felt it would be cheating to take her number.

Arrrgh.

The very next week this Austrian, an executive secretary, found some affluent, wealthy local guy over there in Tyrol — and broke it off with me. 😉 She was that type who basically wanted a guy with bucks.

I recall feeling at the moment I gave this gal the brushoff a sickening sensation that I was betraying myself, or maybe, just maybe, deep-down, not feeling worthy of happiness……

I looked the next week for this girl, and even went to Arnold Communications, which has hundreds of employees and part-timers, at their main office on Boylston Street, but I had had no name or anything for this gal. The security guards wondered if I was simply a stalker and told me, in effect, to get lost.

I waited in the Blue Line subway for her about five times at the same hour and never saw her again. 🙁

NEVER ignore that little voice saying “Go for it”!

I learned from this firsthand that the egoic mind is real, it is masochistic, and it gets off on making us suffer.

My soul wanted to find my soul mate, and have joy, growing with another good person, but my mind said “Suffering, not happiness, is for you.”

So I said only “It was nice talking to you.”

Why do I tell stories on myself? 😉

Because I am a human just like you, but the way I am different from so many is that I ruthlessly face the truth about myself, stop making excuses, and say:

“You did screw up. Now why? What was going on inside you?” 😉

I hated myself, I beat myself up, during my nine-year interlife for losing the war, though we evacuated our ultra-best scientists and soldiers to the Antarctic.

…..Hitler’s moral and strategic disaster in Russia: the goal was to seize European Russia for Germany, not just destroy bolshevism

Then I learned to love and forgive myself, satisfied that I had thoroughly learned the lessons.

And so, as Émile Couet said, “every day, in every way, I am striving to get better and better.” 🙂

We all can.

We all must. We’re here to change.

To be, not just whites, like the slobs around us, but Aryans.

To awaken that Aryan already in us, who makes us feel so wonderful, in those golden moments when we are “in the zone” — and finding again our real selves.