Margi and I were soul mates and together 24/7 for about 13 of our 17 years, just about “joined at the hip.” This made her sudden death on September 12 a drastic shock. While I was grateful for Margi’s love for 17 years, and also for her quick and merciful passing, the downside of this was that I felt extreme grief. I felt stabbing chest pains in my ribs, chest tightness, and my blood pressure soared to 216/121. 

I have been a warrior in many lives but it is one thing to lose a buddy on the battlefield — we expect casualties in war, and fighting and killing is part of of having male DNA, such as being a hunter, the man who must bring home meat for his family  —

….and it is another thing to lose a good, loving, loyal and supportive wife.

“It is not good for the man to be alone,” God said of Adam in the Garden of Eden….and He created Eve. 😉

I wrote to two Mormon friends of hers from Durham, North Carolina:

Knowing my responsibility now to inspire and guide our race, I went twice to the ER for blood-pressure solutions, once in Ontonagon, Michigan, and another time up in Hancock.

My GP did a full physical, ordered a chest x-ray, measured my blood pressure, did a battery of blood tests, and said:

You are in excellent health, except for this normal grief reaction.

Yeah, just this little thing that is kinda like having your arm ripped off and blood spurting all over the room. 😉

At a local tavern, a Quentin said to me: “You would not believe how many couples I have heard of where he keels over, or she does, and a month later the other spouse is gone too.”

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….Seeing Margi in a future incarnation?

A comrade wrote:

Keep alert for her reincarnation, John. Her soul knows where to find you.

 

I replied:Thanks for your comment.

Yes, and when one understands reincarnation, then the interlife (the existence between earthly incarnations) is a time of huge growth and often of them helping us out who are still on this side— after getting permission from our guardian angels to do so.

A wise old saying, probably going back for millennia, is “speak no ill of the dead.”

And that is because many of them do hang out in their old houses from time to time, out of love and habit, and they listen to what we say about them. And if it is fair and balanced or on the other hand abusive, they hear it.

So it is wise to truly forgive our deceased loves ones their little flaws, ever cognizant of our own.

As taught by the blond Jesus of Galilee (Galilee meaning “Goyim District” in Hebrew, Galil ha goyim)

if you judge others mercilessly, God will judge you mercilessly too.

We can indeed speak to our deceased loved ones, as I actually do every day to Margi’s ghost.

The departed can actually be very busy doing things and growing up; they can also “pull strings” for us,  and create new chances and opportunities for us in this world, which can otherwise be very bleak.

This planet is so full of horrors now as well as beauty, and more than ever before.

Woe to those who cut God, their angels and their transitioned relatives off in these daunting, yea, pre-apocalyptic times!

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Part of my coping with intense bereavement over losing my soulmate of 17 years is, in fact, talking out loud (or just in my mind) to my late wife, expressing to Margi my joy that she is once again free from pain, and is again a beautiful and luscious 30-year-old woman, weighing around 115, and no longer the emaciated 90 pounds of pain that she was in her final two months — where she was, btw, very stoic, brave, tough and Aryan.

On the other side, everyone looks 30, neither young nor old, but at their peak.

I thank Margi from all my heart for a thousand kind, loyal, and loving things she did for me 2005-2022…. and I wish her from all my heart great spiritual advancement NOW, where she is, meaning great growth and change on the other side.

She knows what her issues were, as I do mine, and the guardian angels assigned to us and to her, and our deceased relatives, can be VERY helpful in gently prodding us forward.

We can watch life-review videos with these loving beings as much as we want, and discuss with them the right or wrong choices we made. Btw, lying is literally impossible on the other side. Anyone you are conversing with can read your thoughts and you theirs, plus see your aura. While one CAN wall one’s thoughts off, that in itself becomes an instant “red flag” for the other person. 😉

And so when we reincarnate, in some cases we are NOT THE SAME PERSON AT ALL. Many change drastically for the better.

Many people, however, waste entire incarnations with minimal or no spiritual progress. but then maybe, just maybe, it is in the interlife where they wise up.

So there is no guarantee that an Alexander the Great, Julius Caesar, Charlemagne, or Adolf himself would be a great conqueror again in his next life.

Suppose our guardian angels sit you down and have you, the once Glorious Warlord, watch as wives, mothers and grandmothers weep on getting the news that their son or husband had fallen in battle.

War is hell, and a leader must never be eager for it.

Free will is, however, the iron law of God.

He lets us choose — and He grants us as well the consequences of our choices.

I already told my little Margi many times when she was still here that in our next lives, I wanted so much to have a big family with her the next time!

I will be blogging on all this.
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…..Amazing advice I decided to follow, and my BP went WAY down

This is not bad for my age and the grieving phase I am in.

A comrade with a Keltic name [Mc-] read of my mortal danger from hypertension, and wrote me as follows:

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Hi, John,

 Sorry to hear of the bad news, but what I can do is give you some free advice regarding blood pressure/blood glucose management, cardiac health and reversing some of the problems that can be caused by trauma, and not out of a theoretical situation from the internet, but from hard-earned personal experience.

 I’m 54, and was a victim of just outright medical incompetence when I was 40. I had untreated pneumonia for months, which resulted in me being admitted to hospital with double lung failure, because someone was too lazy to listen and do a simple mouth swab!

 The results nearly killed me. Well, the antibiotics ruined my liver, gave me type-2 diabetes, chronic fatigue and I ended up seeing a chiropractor to help as I was on a downward cascade, from being a formerly healthy person.

The stress and stains that I was entertaining at the time were fairly similar to your current situation, in that my ex-partner ran off to Canada with my child, and I had no effective contact with my own offspring for 17 years.

You can appreciate the anguish, I’m sure. I had to deal with it mentally in the same way as a bereavement, which basically wrecked my life.

Anyway, I undertook measures where I looked at diet and habits, and along the way I’ve found out how to heal and repair a liver, reverse diabetes, lower blood pressure and reverse peripheral neuropathy.

Ironically, last week I broke my current spectacles, and opened up an old case where I forgot to donate pairs of designer-prescription glasses — and guess what? My eyesight is on par with when I was in my early 30’s!

 Anyway, last year thanks to Covid our government and doctors abandoned the public in medical terms. So the hard-earned lessons I’ve done reversed diabetes, eye damage, lowered cholesterol levels, repaired my liver, fixed the immune system and healed my gut. I’ve learned to sleep, which isn’t easy when you’ll have the things you will currently have on your mind, so I’ll give you a few tips there as well.

*** Yes, like WWIII looming and economic collapse

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 Step #1 Lowering blood pressure. Now the kidneys and liver and all things connected are basically a large filtering system, so the starting point is to reduce your added salt intake to zero, and if your eyes are losing focus and the retinas are affected, I’d suggest you immediately do a water/tea/coffee fast for a few days.

That will allow your kidneys and liver to catch up from the strain,  and push the sugars and everything else through your system, and you will get a resultant drop in blood pressure and blood sugar. After a couple of days, you’ll notice your eyes change where the pressure drops and your eyesight will come back into focus.

 A really good idea and I’ve done this myself is to ensure you eat a lot of broccoli & cauliflower with anything else, but ensure you cut out all liquid oils, and I’ll explain why.

My two new girlfriends,  Brockley and Cauley 

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Last year I snapped my left shoulder on 4^th April and because I couldn’t get medical treatment due to the Covid lockdowns, it went untreated until 20^th May — when I suffered a heart attack!

I spoke to the health services, but the ambulance didn’t turn up, and no doctor arrived! I was left sitting in my home wondering when anyone was going to turn up to get me medical treatment.

Well, nobody turned up, and I was left with no choice but to get myself to the hospital.

Went outside at 1:30 a.m. and found I had a flat car battery!

At this point you can imagine, I thought, well, I’m screwed, and my last option was to leave the house keys, wallet and any belongings that mattered — and started the walk of NINE miles across country to get to hospital.

 At this point you are probably thinking you’re about to read fiction. But I can assure you what I’m about to tell you is relevant to you, and it’s bullet-proof enough that I was able to walk nine miles while having a cardiac arrest, and I made it out of hospital four days later, without the scheduled stent surgery that the medical staff frankly thought was unbelievable.

 I was admitted, they verified my heart enzymes were raised, and I went straight to the cardiac ward, where my blood pressure went very high. And cardiac rates varied a lot, from, say, 70-160 bpm on a minute by minute basis. My blood pressure was also raised, and I’ve experienced the blurred vision — and this is what I did in hospital after they fed me their best attempt at a meal they thought was suitable for a diabetic patient, who’s in the cardiac ward with a broken shoulder and is awaiting probably surgery!

 They gave me a meal which put my blood sugar to over 13.0 mmol/L, which is really bad and will inhibit healing.

So without their advice or input I refused all their shitty food and just drank tea and coffee for two days.

This alone lowered the blood pressure to normal levels, i.e under that of hypertension, in my case, 130/70 with a heart rate that stabilized and normalized over a couple of days.

I had scans and an angiogram where the camera was put inside my heart, and here’s the really interesting part.

I’ll paraphrase what the surgeon said to me while he prepared me on the operating table. He looked at my notes and asked me if I were the patient that walked nine miles to hospital. I confirmed that, and, remember, I’m on the operating table at this point, awake, with a camera inside my heart, where he called everyone over in the operating theatre to look at my heart.

 He read out my notes, then announced to the operating theatre staff:

“I want you all to look at this patient’s heart. He’s walked nine miles to hospital, while having a cardiac arrest — and look at his heart”.

It turned out that not only had I done no damage to my heart or my valves in my heart, but the cardiac surgeon remarked he’s never seen anything like it, nor would he expect to see anything like it again in his entire medical career!

 Anyway, when the operation was over, as I was his last operation of the afternoon, he asked me how and what I was doing to be able to have that result, which from his point of view was amazing.

I told him what I’m going to tell you…..nitric oxide production and protecting endothelium function through diet. I then directly referred him to a book by a surgeon who’s on Youtube Dr. Cauldwell Esselstyn, who’s written a book on how to prevent and reverse heart disease. Now at this point you’ll notice the guy is Jewish, but I read the book after watching the lectures on YouTube and applied these principles to my diet.

*** https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Caldwell_Esselstyn

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Short version, the chemicals in broccoli and cauliflower help strip away artery plaque and make the veins all nice and clean, reversing cardiac risk of a fatal heart attack. The absence of oil in the diet makes the blood less sticky, and then the arteries open up, and all the mess there gets swept away and the blockages clear away. So, in my case, even though I was having a heart attack, I still managed to walk to hospital!

The cardiac unit and the operating staff all wanted me to write to the hospital to pass on my personal experience and act as a default guinea pig for people recovering from surgery, heart disease, and cardiac operations. I do this for free, freaked out the eye specialist when my eyesight improved, and repaired my liver where it is better than the 25-year-old nurse that tested me!

Now I’m not religious, and I’m not a narcissist, but clearly my own experience of learning the hard way, despite no medical treatment, and being nearly killed by medical professionals, can have a profound effect on some patients, which brings us back to your situation.

Help the kidneys for a couple of days by not eating any food, but it’s especially important not to consume any carbohydrates to raise your blood sugar. You want to drive your insulin low, and after a short period the body goes into an automatic healing/repair mode called autophagy. It’s automatic, and will do this after your blood glucose levels are exhausted. This means tea, coffee and water only for a few days.

You can do this for a week, but here’s what I do to trigger this automatically. I don’t eat food from Friday afternoon to Monday afternoon. Then back to your diet as normal, but you want to eliminate all oils, and eat lots of broccoli, whether you hate it or not! Some butter on it will make it more palatable.

Now would you believe, even though I walked out of hospital without so much as a stent, they still didn’t notice my broken shoulder? Anyway, a year on from there, I’m capable of walking miles without pain in the chest. My blood pressure is lowered, with no variable heart rate — and would you believe my resting heart rate is now 57 bpm! That’s that of an athelete…..at the age of 54!

 As you can tell from my name I’m certainly now Jewish, but this Dr Esselstyn worked for the [world-famous] Cleveland Clinic, and he’s definitely onto something. And my ‘walk or die’ approach to get to hospital proved it. But nobody would have known quite how well it actually worked without me having had the heart attack in the first place.

So, I know you are in a bad place, John, and I know how you’ll be hurting — but if my suffering and my making my way back from the dead — caused by stress and medical negligence — with some dietary changes I made and some tricks I picked up, had such a profound effect on me, it might be worthwhile to follow my example.

 The technique you can sort of mimic is by watching Dr Jason Fung’s YouTube channel. He’s a nephrologist (kidney specialist in Canada), and he advocates fasting for diabetics to reverse many of the issues you have that are typical for diabetics to deal with.

My own eye doctor and his wife followed my advice, and they are both diabetics. He couldn’t believe he witnessed my own eyesight damage reverse. I’ve re-educated my doctors, and the cardiac team are studying me!

 I haven’t had a happy last 14 years, but the hard-earned lessons I’ve learned have been learned the hard way, through crippling mental anguish, pain and at times abject misery. But through that process I’ve found some things out, especially how to trigger autophagy, clean out arteries and reverse blood pressure and heart problems, and I do not mean in some theoretical way, but practically….backed up by being on the operating theatre possibly facing my chest being opened, but finding out the diet I adopted and a few supplements — available at the nearest chemist — can reverse some serious problems.

 It wasn’t faith, religion, an end to my missing my child, or the destruction of my health and business. It boiled down to broccoli, cauliflower, no oil, cutting out the sugar, and keeping insulin low. With some fasting on top of the above, it basically saved my life — and if I can pass this along, my suffering was worthwhile, it will help you get back on your feet.

Take it slow, be patient, take one day at a time, and keep thinking of that broccoli on every plate you eat. Avocado and olives are fine, by the way, just no liquid oils of any kind.

I’m happy to give you my home number if you wish or talk you through things via a webcam if you need some free coaching! Don’t think of that piece of shit, Fred Leuchter! But try to limit your eating window between midday and say 6pm, and the rest of the time your kidneys will be eliminating all the stuff in your system, removing fat from your liver, and many of the problems such as blood pressure, eyes issues and blood glucose and insulin will automatically reverse as the body will do that on its own.

Trust me, having survived liver failure, blurred eyes with a killed immune system, and vomiting and expecting to die, it’s just a shame for me that my own doctors didn’t know anything other than pushing pills to get patients out of their office.

 Get some magnesium tablets and that will help you sleep better/relax.

 Sorry that I didn’t get in touch under different circumstances, but hopefully the advice will reverse your issues and help in this challenging time. If you want a list of supplements, I’ll provide what I take on a daily basis. Oh, and the hospital wrote to my doctor’s surgery giving them a piece of their mind! Let’s say it must have been quite something being abused by a hospital in writing for the shitty patient care!

 Need advice, just ask. No new age, or crank advice – everything I’ve learned is nutritional science, medical literature and practical personal experience.

 R

[I have been following his advice — I love broccoli and cauliflower anyway —  and so far so good.]

 

……Is Margi busy on the other side?

I was busy shaving when I heard a voice:

“I can do much more for you now.”

A friend and major donor, a former Green Beret, who once drove a thousand miles to see me from out west, called me to say that even before he had heard that Margi had passed over, suddenly three things — badabing, badaboom, as Tony used to say in “The Sopranos” — changed for the better in his life.

He got a good job, a nemesis was suddenly gone from his life, and a third thing happened that he did not want to say over the phone.

He said, ‘I felt Margi’s presence. I was on a break at work and I felt a beautiful feeling. And I told my wife, who said that she also was praying for me at that moment.’

He also told me another story, that a fishing and canoeing buddy, Don, who also knew his wife, had passed over in just his fifties, and then spoke to his wife from the beyond.

There was a noticeable sensation in the room, she said, when Don spoke to her, in his own voice.

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Keep on staying busy, Margi girl. You CAN be so much more help to me and to us all from the beautiful jew-free world you are in now. Heaven itself is a national-socialist world!

From this — at the Twin Lakes park with her oxygen tank:

 

 

back to this: At Ernst Zündel’s place in Tennessee in 2006

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… in 2018, 12 years later, for me Margi  was still a “babe”… 😉

 

Deine Ehre hieß Treue. Bis zum Ende.

Your honor was loyalty — to the end!

Heil, Margaret Huffstickler — She is PRESENT!

 

 

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…..I thank all my heroic donors

Recent donations:

— 30 September 2022 $160 via CashApp from J in Arkansas

— 30 September 2022 $50 via PayPal from S in Germany

 

— 30 September 2022 $50 via CashApp from I in unknown location

I wrote him:

Dear comrade I[],

Your donation of $50 was deeply appreciated. It is a sacrifice, and it will help save millions of lives!

John de Nugent