….it was asked of me, why don’t I tell my story?  Why don’t I write, make videos?  Tell my story of how and why I broke free of the jew cult and came to embrace and identify with white nationalism, German National Socialism,  European history,  Christian faith and have become an outspoken opponent of the jewish agenda in all its many forms.   I have a thing or two to say about it.  I speak well. I write well.   People who know me appreciate my insights into the topic.

What I have to say is just as valid and worthy of public attention as many others who,  for whatever their reasons, have broken from the cult and speak out against it or some aspect of it.  People like Benjamin Friedman, Bobby Fischer, Brother Nathaniel, Gilad Atzmon, Norman Finklestein, and so many many others.  All of whom are a resource to undertanding the truth about jewish cult.  Not just what they do, but the “why”.   I cannot speak for these others as to their life story or motivations or inspirations, but as far as I know, no one has gone so far from the cult as I have, totally rejecting all of it and embracing the cause of the German Reich as something very deeply personal to me.  Especially since I have zero German ancestry,  growing up in New York City, by default a typical secular liberal jewish and anti-christian environment, with no right-wing influences or people in my life, let alone white nationalist, and no particular interest in  WWII.   Klansman and “neo-nazis” might as well have been mythical boogeymen.  It was only about 10 years ago that I became aware of past life memories of the German Reich, and from there pursued these interests in search of my own soul, and began to learn about and seek out people in these movements.

Imagine a proud officer of the NSDAP, who died in 1945,  who knew Hitler personally, reincarnates into a poor and unhappy jewish family in America, memories  completely wiped except for this constant and overwhelming feeling that there is something terribly wrong with all of this; that this whole world is all wrong.  But I just can’t put my finger on why……

……..and then I have this dream of being a German in the Reich.   And I was proud to be German.  I felt it.  And we loved Hitler.  And he loved us.  And we were part of something exciting, something important.  Everyone was buzzing with activity.  There was an energy about it.  Like we were really alive.

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Now it all made sense.  If the jewish version of history was true, I would have been repulsed by these memories.  But I did not feel repulsed. I felt validated.  and thus began my journey on this path.

As for my own insights along this path, I present it from a spiritual perspective, the “big picture” of the war on Heaven being played out on Earth, incarnation after incarnation, the role of the jews,  drawing from historical and sacred works, Biblical,  apocrypha and gnostic understandings,  my own past life memories, intuitions and revelations,  sometimes with the aid of entheogens.    Something that White Nationalists really fail miserably at is getting caught up in the weeds of details and purity spirals and failing to see the big picture.

I made a few videos on these topics but stopped.  I write a blog occasionally.  Why haven’t I put myself out there like those aformentioned notable people and make some good content, get some recognition?    I should be considered a resource of knowledge and insight. I should be appearing interviews and public speaking.

…….its because when I do, I am almost immediately attacked on social media by stalkers and trolls, as discussed in my previous blog regarding Gwendolyn Grant and Aaron Slade.   Word goes out on various message boards i.e., ” I HAVE PROOF AVRAN IS A JEW, HE ADMITTED IT” followed by  buffet of fabricated accusations of being and ADL agent,  Israeli spy,  troll, mole, sock,  sex offender, pervert, rapist, molesting  girls,  mysogynist, “the jewiest jew”  dirty kike and jew parasite….. any number of repugnant characteristics  justifiably associated with those wretched hand-wringing merchants out to fuck over the goyim automatically get transferred onto me.   Nothing I say in my defense is believed, and never mind anything i’ve shared in the above paragraphs let alone any other creative work I want to put out there.  Never mind the fact that, under scrutiny it becomes apparent that the rumor-generators are themselves the very hand-wringing trolls they accuse me of; the very agents who are causing so much disruption within the WN community.

This is the thanks I get for my efforts.   if I had my name out there putting out content with hundreds of hits or views and got some hate mail, that would be par for the course;  but I’m barely out of the gate with maybe a few hits or views and get slammed.   I had one youtube video that got only 7 views and yet was reported and removed.   for  discussing an ayhuasca trip.    I’ve also been reported to the police.  Yes actual real life police. for posting a blog warning my fellow republican party collegues about the immiment danger of hysterical liberals turning violent. (as if it wasn’t already obvious?)

I was also targeted by police for expressing my views about the White Nationalists event Charlottesville.   The church that I was going to at the time put out notices to universally condemn the “white supremacists”.   I voiced my objections.   I was actually there, yes, side-by-side with my adopted WN brothers, and saw what went down. For this the police decided that I was a terrorist threat and made several attempts to stick charges on me and then tried to get me committed into a psych ward.   All for expressing my views in a calm and lawful lawful manner to people who I thought were my friends.

While far more of pure white Aryan stock have chosen the path of anti-white cucks than have not, I have chosen the narrow path.  I see these Folk as my adopted family.  Some have reciprocated the sentiment,  some have not.  But As David Lane once said, “if he looks white, fights white, he is our Folk”   Yes I will take that to include me.

If I really was a Harvey Weinstein or an ADL agent, where are the photos of me with young starlets on my arm? Where are my alleged “victims”?  Where is my yacht?  My fancy car? My big house?  Where is my respectable position in society like a journalist or tenured college professor?  What trouble have I ever caused  for anyone associated with WN, NatSoc or Alt Right?  Why the f— would I even be writing this?  Why would I even give a shit what you think?   What benefit do I get from choosing this very unpopular path in life? You all backstab each other every day well enough on your own.   Jew is as jew does.  You have no grievance with me.

Whatever I have to say, it seems there are some hand-wringing schemers who do NOT want me to be heard and put extra effort into public shaming and ridicule.  Just sayin’.

Don’t categorize me.  I am not a jew.  I am not one of them. [emphasis added]  I am not a “righteous jew”.  I am a convert, baptized into a traditional, old-world, not-jew-ass-kissing Christian parish.  (which, by the way, was hard to find).  I am an ex-jew.  You say there is no such thing.  Yet I exist.  Deal with it.  My “tribe” is the family of Christ.  And don’t lecture me about the true Israelites either.  I am well aware of the true identity and role of Isra-el to lead all humanity,  not to exclude, as the CI people believe, nor to enslave as the jews would do. That is a topic for another essay.

What if I really am an officer of the NSDAP, and have reincarnated? Are you still going to try to insult me by quoting my very own words about jews, words that I wrote 80 years ago?   I have been fighting them for over 2000 years in several human incarnations, the NSDAP just one of them.  And now I am here in the belly of the beast on my final mission to unravel an ancient curse.   What could you possibly know about jews that I don’t?    intelligent people know my work.   Idiots believe gossip.

Thankfully I have met some very bright, dedicated and wonderful people in White Nationalism,  who have been supportive.  it seems all have been targeted in one way or another.   So I’m in good company.  The best.