Revisionism: the heroes I knew, the passion for truth, and the fratricidal egos; David Duke, narcissist and MK-ULTRA; my MK experience

The late, great, extremely persecuted revisionist Ernst Zündel, who did over seven years in prison hell in the US, Canada, and Germany

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I have been getting great feedback on this 90-minute video, below, with veteran revisionist Jim Rizoli of Massachusetts. I am especially glad that I got to discuss the role of narcissists on our cause.

Eckhart Tolle says “the egoic mind” is the root of all our suffering…and it is also why the jews can divide and conquer us! My goal is to create a new spiritual movement to end the rule of the ego over us so that all the good in people predominates and not the dark side.
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I mention in the video my own childhood in MK-ULTRA. my inner turning point to truth about the jews, and my encounters with

–Matt Koehl,

— the devious, Jesuit-trained Mark Weber,

–William Pierce,

— Willis Carto,

Hans Schmidt, Fred Leuchter, Ernst Zündel, Ted O’Keefe, the Scientologist Tom Marcellus, Ingrid Rimland — and also my belief in NDEs, Near-Death Experiences –and their importance in proving life after death.

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A supportive comment on NDEs:

James MadDog
I have a coworker who died for 7 minutes and now swears he went to the other side. He told me in great detail what he saw. I got to thinking, if it was just him dreaming, how come he remembers everything so clearly. When I wake up from a dream, I only remember the details for like 5 minutes. LOL My coworker remembered his “dream” years later. I would say he really did go somewhere else under full consciousness and therefore was not dreaming.
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…..DAVID DUKE AND I

David Duke pre-nose job, chin-job, eye-job, cheek implants and hair coloring

After:

Some brave soul 😉 with the email of anon@anon.net wrote me:

You said:

And I will save our race. Look at the one the Jews attack most. It ain’t Duke. He gets federal prison, then early release. He gets arrested in Prague, then released the next day. Just enough persecution to give him “cred” with the gullible.

So, what are you trying to say — that David Duke is actually working for the Jews? Because I think you just did. You’ve been sniping at him for some time, but now you’ve implied that he’s a Jewish-controlled agent, and a traitor to White people. You often talk about how wrong it is to slander and defame someone, but you’ve just slandered and defamed David Duke. Do you have any proof to back up your accusations? I think you need to elaborate on your comments.

Dear person (I could call you “comrade” but you may be ADL, SPLC, Simon Wiesenthal Center or FBI, or just a black-jew-mex-hating person who also enjoys hating many or most white people ” in other words, a hate-filled psychopath, like far too many Stormfronters and VNNers, not an aryophile racial idealist who loves our race and shows love and respect to ACTUAL WHITE PEOPLE on a daily basis) ¦ ¦

“Slander” and “defamation” imply falsehood. I have spread neither.

I did state the FACTS: that Duke got early release from federal prison, and that he was released after ONE day by the Czechs.

Do you seriously believe that I, John de Nugent, would get such treatment? How about my assistant, Henrik Holappa, who got 87 days in solitary, and then was banned for life from US soil as a terrorist?

Does the Joint Terrorism Task Force, which arrested my radio engineer Mike Williams and then lawyer Edgar Steele, come to his house? They came in March 2009 and arrested my assistant Holappa, they came again in June 2009 in re James von Brunn and they came twice, two months ago, in re my assistant Clark Lightbridge. Why do they not knock on David Duke’s door?

Why, with thousands of supporters, AND HIS “EURO” MAILING LIST, does Duke not start or restart an organization and HOLD MEETINGS? The Tea Party, over 95% white and opposed to both Obama and illegal immigration, is booming ¦.. So why does Duke hole up in the Alps of Austria (pop. 7 million) ¦ ¦..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ol5bJMDZZLo

¦ ¦.when AMERICA, the most important white country on earth in terms of both numbers (180 million whites, who have both gun and free-speech rights) and sheer military power, is in roiling ferment?

What do the Feds still “have on him”?

I have worked regular jobs for almost all of my life: a paperboy, then several factories, agriculture and dairy, the Marines, steam carpet-cleaning, window-washing, convenience store clerk, teaching and translating.

To the best of my knowledge, David Duke, like Bill Clinton and Barack Obama, has basically worked no regular American jobs. Duke worked in the early 1970s, during the tail end of the Vietnam War, for the Defense Intelligence Agency in Laos.

Why do the same Austrians, who are among the very worst persecutors of revisionists and white nationalists on earth, and who arrested, convicted and imprisoned David Irving for something he had said almost two decades earlier, and threw Gerd Honsik for six years in prison, and have given many years to engineer Wolfgang Fröhlich, nevertheless allow David Duke to flourish while openly living there?

Why does Duke not go hammer-and-tong after the government’s version of 9/11, and state, as even the part-Jew Alan Sabrosky did, THE MOSSAD DID IT? Initially, Duke’s website printed the truth about the Jewish authorship of 9/11, but now he has backed off ¦.Now, just as Bush said, “the Arabs did it” and the Jews simply did not notify us of what they knew ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ He told me and Margaret so ourselves, in 2007, when he was in Washington for the AmRen conference. We were speechless.

Why did Wikipedia delete its own earlier reference (embarrassing to him?) to his Austrian paradise domicile ” not street address ” in the lakeside ski town of Zell am See?

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Zell_am_See

You can see the current version here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/David_Duke

I simply mentioned how Margi and I visited Duke and his Russian girlfriend there for one week in 2007 on my blog, and Duke objected to that. I protested that the info on his apartment in Zell am See was already out there on Wikipedia! He said to me:

“John, that creates the wrong impression, and besides, I do not even use that apartment any more.”

Strangely, however, most or all of his recent videos are shot in the living room of that same apartment. I know, because I and Margaret slept for a week on a foldout couch in that living room.

Is Wikipedia MY friend? No. It deleted the entire article on ME, stating (via the “editor” with the name of “Hullabaloo Horowitz”) that John de Nugent was “not a noteworthy person” ¦ ¦.

(I guess that is why ABC, CBS, NBC, Fox News Channel, the CBC (Canadian Broadcasting Company) and the Discovery Channel have run interviews with me, why Bing has 2.6 million hits on my name, and the Discovery Channel did a one-hour show that centered on attacks on the Solutrean Hypothesis and on me, including the trailers ¦ ¦ ¦. See )

In point of fact, I have KNOWN David Duke personally for 22 years ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦..since I MOVED to New Orleans (to the suburb of Metairie) to help him and learn from him after his exciting victory for Louisiana state representative in 1989.

I also do not understand why, after I told him in 2007 I had no medical insurance and I was planning to run for US Congress (a plan thwarted when the Mississippi State Police terrorized my money man, Rick Knox of Kentucky, after three millionaires had pledged to him to support me at a Mississippi meeting place, and they had done polling in five states for a WN candidate, showing me WINNING in two of those five potential races), and after 20 years off the ski slopes, I did not want to risk going skiing with him, he nevertheless cajoled and cajoled me to go skiing ” and actually paid for a restaurant meal for me, unheard of for Duke, as anyone who knows him can testify 😉 ” and then after a beginner and intermediate slope, took me to the most expert, dangerous slope on top of the mountain and then abandoned me there. It was so steep I could not even see the bottom. I took off my skis and slid down the left side of the slope, which was not only a Black-Diamond grade of steepness, but covered with icy patches.

I also dated his onetime girlfriend Donna Randall. I know a LOT about David Duke ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦.

I also know that his closest friend, Don Black ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦.

¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦..using proxies such as “Jackboot” (called “Stormfront Chief of Staff”) ¦ ¦..

Don Black’s son (l) and Jackboot (r) (I know his real name) ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦.

Jackboot, Black and another immoderate moderator spread lies I was a homosexual. Black directly stated on a poison thread that I was “delusional” (meaning: crazy, seeing things and insane) and needed to see a psychiatrist. Jackboot declared libellously that “John de Nugent” was a false name and “affectation.”

A Norwegian video producer who works for Duke, “Norsewolf,” took up two afternoons of my time, called me by my last name “Nugent” (though he is in his twenties and I was sacrificing everything for our race seven years before he was born) and then stood me up, without apology, when we had an appointment to work together.

I also know that Duke’s delivery is listless and flat, lacking the fire of inner conviction.

David Duke has however done great things for our Cause. He has established (as have I) a moderate, reasonable tone for our message, and his duel with Wolf Blitzer on CNN, exposing him as a former AIPAC employee with no journalism background, was a triumph!

His two books have superb value in promoting our Cause.

I also know that Duke went to bat with President Ahmadinejad of Iran for a persecuted Holocaust revisionist, who, however, let Duke and that person down.

I do know this: that someone is very actively sandbagging me behind the scenes to others. A key and big-name vocalist for my Solutrean Anthem bowed out suddenly. There has been a resurgence of defamations of me as a homosexual, and now they are going after my assistant, Jason Salyers, with the same vile slander. When I was trying to get Henrik Holappa an American-citizen wife so he could stay in America (even possibly going low-profile thereafter), Duke spoke to that person, who then not only broke off all contact but then gave him and me the cold shoulder at the 2008 Duke/EURO conference, to which I, Holappa and Margaret drove, 900 miles one-way in a small 1991 Honda, to support that meeting when it was being excluded from venue after venue and where all three of us finally spoke. (Holappa, apparently “unworthy” to marry that female comrade after Duke spoke with her, gave the only speech at the conference that got a standing ovation. Don Black refused to return his greeting.)

https://johndenugent.com/henrik-holappa

None of the above information is defamation, or slander, just proven or provable facts. I got lots of ’em.

The question how much further I go now ¦.. is up to David Duke ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦. but I am just as aware of surreptitious bad-mouthing as I am of overt attacks. My MOS in the Marine Corps Reserve was military intelligence, interrogation, the study of body language and putting together patterns from various bits and pieces of information. I had an affinity for all such activities at that time, and got three meritorious promotions (from a Jewish CO, to boot), making corporal, that is, NCO, in one year. I still have that affinity today.

I will finally state this: David Duke was absolutely GUILTY as charged of stealing campaign contributions for gambling. He went straight upstairs to his bedroom in his Metaire home/HQ (the one with the weights set), clutching giant black trash bags full of cash, thrown at rallies into little blue buckets with Duke bumper stickers on them, donations given by the little people of Louisiana and sent in by mail from the pocketbooks of the little old ladies and blue-collar truck drivers of America.

The money was never heard from again, and I know for a fact that Duke, reprehensibly, flew to Las Vegas or drove to Missippippi casino riverboats to gamble with campaign donations. In fact, a limo picked him up at McCurran Airport in Las Vegas because he was a high roller.

Duke also did very little “constituent service” as a State Rep, and would NOT have been reelected as state rep in 1994. His own staff was in such an uproar in late 1989 that several of his people met with me and asked ME to run against HIM for state representative!

Instead, out of respect for the man’s undeniable courage and services for our Cause, I moved away, up to Tennessee, and ran for US Congress there. See 09:58-19:02 of John de Nugent Presidential Video 1A

Dr. William Pierce ” when I worked for him 1981-84 ” once bitterly showed me Duke’s complete plagiarism (copy-and-paste, Martin Luther King-style) of his own famous brochure on the Jews and the media.

I could go on. I could talk about many things, involving matters that I still choose not to air. I will just say that in esoteric circles New Orleans is called the “root chakra” of the United States. Look it up.

(I was at a party in Metairie, and drove there in my rented car, a Ford Probe. One of the Duke girls came up to me and said, smiling: “Oh, you’re the guy with the red Probe.” ¦. 😉 )

Someone is actively defaming me in a vast email and phone campaign, it is now increasing, and each person I confront says “Twaren’t me!”

I have run many Duke videos on this blog. In fact, if one does a search here, one will see many, many positive references to Duke, especially in 2008-2010:

https://johndenugent.com/?s=%22David+Duke%22

In fact, I defended Duke just a year ago, and again six months ago against fierce attacks by esteemed revisionist Paul Grubach, who once had been a fervent Duke supporter.

I told Paul Grubach that while Duke is no angel, he has also done many excellent things for our race. That is still my viewpoint. But I fear that he fears my rise as competition, and I fear that someone, so to speak, either Jews or the Feds (which is virtually the same thing) “has a gun to his head” over some “dirt.” (And we all have dirt. New Orleans people often have more than the average ¦..;-))

This book by New Orleans reporter Tyler Bridges, a race-mixing white liberal, unfortunately is virtually 100% accurate in its revelations about Duke’s public life, but does not go into many private issues. (http://www.amazon.com/Rise-David-Duke-Tyler-Bridges/dp/087805684X/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1301160140&sr=8-1) I know these issues from multiple sources, as I know things about Arnold Schwarzenegger, too, a psychopathic turncoat who degraded women and went from a WN at heart to a wooden actor good at playing robots ;-), to a Jew-lackey politician in Mexifornia. What appalled me when Tyler Bridges contacted ME was how much dirt he and his Jew bosses at the New Orleans Times-Picayune jewspaper had on Duke, all blackmailable material.

This hideous neanderthalic Jew, the publisher S.I Newhouse, has a goldmine of info on Duke.

Willis Carto once told me how angry he was and withdrew from a Duke/EURO conference, and then sighed: ” ¦.but David Duke is all we have!” How would the Jews like it if that became no longer the case?

I was not born yesterday. In fact, I think I have had many lives, and false friends should beware bad karma and instant karma, and the man who keeps the files.

We can go to the next stage of battle, and perhaps I should. The Jews plan an all-out attack in any case

1) on my message to white liberals and to minorities, and

2) on my character, sanity and sexuality to rightwingers, such as WNs, Tea Party conservatives, Republicans, and Christian Zionists.

By then all the gloves will come off on my part toward the Jews and all their collaborators, whether willing or unwilling. It will be a total war.

Look to the one the Jews hate most. The one who, like Hitler, is called crazy, megalomanic, homosexual, incestuous, carpet-chewer, occultist ” and an embezzler, fraud and coward. That is exactly and precisely what I too am called today. All these rumors are being reported to me and spread about me in this month of March 2011, months after the supposed Don Black/John de Nugent cease-fire of late March 2009, which was agreed upon two years ago almost to the day.

It is one thing to have Jews defame me, because defamation is their nature. It is another when white nationalists do so, or use their proxies to spread toxic lies, and worst of all when it happens just at the moment when I am striving to complete the video and musical work necessary to launch my movement.

Defamation is cutting now in harmful ways 1) into my donations and 2) into my outreach to skilled video people and other potential volunteers. When 25-year-olds who have never met me turn away from me with a sneer, I know something is up. When WNs write me after a cogent and informative blog is sent out and scribble back:

“Ah, another John de Nugent blog. It’s time to let the crazies out ¦.”

Then I know it is not my blog but a campaign that is going on and intensifying.

An outtake from the section of the spiritual video on the topic of psychopaths ¦ ¦

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DRz_MOHHaVA

Attorney Sam Dickson once said to me: “Be careful what you say to someone today. In six months there might be a falling-out. He might be your mortal enemy and repeat everything you said in confidence to him.”

The power of the Star Wars story is seeing how some become knights, and others go over to the Dark Side. Those who do the latter must urgently seek redemption and turn back. I am way beyond the hurt-feelings stage. This is a struggle for our race’s survival.

……Duke and I — the two colonels’ sons in MK-ULTRA

And now I will segué into the eerie parallels between me and David Duke and our inevitable clash ” one, a man who broke free of MK-ULTRA, and another who is still its thrall.

Suppose the Jews decided to create, not one, but two Aryan-looking heroic figures to be their puppets and to ensure that the white movement went nowhere despite lots of sputtering?

Suppose they went to two colonels, one Army and one Marine Corps, and said: “WE WANT YOUR SON FOR SPECIAL TRAINING. It is a top-secret elite program, it is very demanding, but some day your boy might be PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES.” Many a father might say “yes!”

My father with President Gerald Ford

Henry Kissinger (l), my father (r)

I have written frequently (but mainly in the 2008-09 period) on how I woke up at age 49 to the real reason for the endless nightmares I suffered during my childhood, teenager and adult years, namely sexual abuse when I was a child.

It was so bad, by design, that I have no detailed memories of the incidents, which are totally blocked out. What I have is every troubling sign of the abuse, such as extreme nightmares and literal fainting (losing consciousness) when shown certain images, especially the male reproductive system and genitalia. I passed out during a lecture on male anatomy at Georgetown University.

I remember running away from home at age ten and having memories after this date.

I remember my mother feeding me a blue pill and then the world whirling about me, and seeing an old man stomp baby birds into mush before my eyes.

That is a typical traumatization technique, to kill baby animals or birds in front of the child so as to inflict extreme terror on the child ” the fear that that he would be next to be killed if he did not submit and obey.

In the worst-case scenarios, children are forced to themselves kill a baby animal such as a baby goat, or to stab out the eyes of a bunny, or ” in the ultimate horror ” participate in the murder of another child.

All of these techniques are used also in satanic rituals involving children: https://johndenugent.com/english/jew-senators-lead-in-screaming-for-gun-confiscation-mk-ultras-and-obviously-faking-it-actors-abound-in-newtown-massacre-government-op (Scroll down 1/4 to “====MICHAEL AQUINO”)

There ain’t nothing the Jews have done worse than this. This is why judaism must be banned under the RICO Act and dissolved as a criminal, psychopathic, and truly genocidal mind CULT. It is not a religion, but a nightmare of slavery and death for all humankind.

Anton LeVay, 1930-97, founder of modern satanism, born Howard Stanton Levy

I watched the full (one-hour) 2003 German documentary Höllenleben — Der Kampf der Opfer rituellen Missbrauches in Deutschland (“Life in hell: the struggle of the victims of ritual abuse in Germany”)

.http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=KoP31LIm81s

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Clearly, Satanists did ritual child murders in the 1990s and in the year 2000 specifically at the Wewelsburg, the famous onetime SS school-castle (.http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wewelsburg), which was many centuries old. and in a way practical for that purpose because it had ritual rooms (it had belonged to a bishop), it had been a prison and had chains on the walls of its dungeons already.

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(Castle is slightly upper-left on a hill)

A further motive for satanists:

1) desecrate it as Himmler’s castle,

2) discredit somehow thereby the SS and thus the Third Reich,

3) try to end it as a source of some mystical Aryan power, or

4) twisting the power for evil, or, of course,

5) all of the above.

Wikipedia’s articles in English and in German on the Wewelsburg mentioned nothing about these massive allegations of child murders there.

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To me it all suggests the Satanists want very badly to 1) weaken the Wewelsburg energy or 2) capture its energy, and certainly try to desecrate the place to ruin any future enjoyment of it by us after our victory.

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It will really need a ritual cleansing, as will the whole “Federal Republic of Germany”..

The German ID card, the Ausweis

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Cathy O’Brien on Mind Control (You can disregard only the part about “Nazis” being involved. Despicably, German Jews such as Kissinger have told children that they were Nazis as they raped some of them, and killed others. Other things O’Brien says are clearly implanted false memories to discredit her, but 99% of what she says is absolutely true.)

 

This also applies to the mind-bending Kathleen Sullivan book Unshackled.  The CIA is funding “white supremacist Nazis” who are neither-nor, but committed Satanists who mainly rape, torture and kill WHITE CHILDREN.

MK-ULTRA and “Unshackled — A Survivor’s Story of Mind Control” by Kathleen Sullivan

For those who have not experienced these horrors, the concept is this:

Extreme trauma drives all human minds to the breaking point, that is, to the point of either going mad or entertaining seriously suicidal thoughts.

At that point, the victim, not wishing to undergone further torture, either seeks a way to commit suicide OR his/her brain acts on its own. To prevent suicide, which would shut down the organism, the instinctual part of the brain, right above the spinal cord, which regulates survival issues, fight-or-flight, and keeps the heart pumping and the lungs breathing while we sleep as well, decides “if this person keeps having flashbacks to this memory, he will end up killing himself, and that is against my program.”

In the protective reaction known as “dissociation” (formerly called “multiple-personality disorder”) a second personality is created (or even three or four), and this alternate personality is tasked with dealing with the suffering. The main personality “forgets” it ” but the word “forget” is wrong in the sense of a total deletion of the information.

It is definitely still there, just buried, or, in psychological terminology, “repressed.” All that repression really means is you have put a lid on it so it does not consciously come forth. However, it is still there, like a flashback waiting to happen again, and festering like pus and bacteria.

It is like the black box on a plane, containing by design the record of the final descent, the actions of the jet and the pilots, the final screams, and the sound of the explosion.

I began to suspect something baffling when I first got married. I would have nightmares once or occasionally twice a week, and they always involved me being taken away by a man. I would scream in terror. And of course it disturbed my wife greatly, the Austrian, and then my second wife, the Frenchwoman, after I divorced and 12 years later remarried.

This gal, my girlfriend from around 1992-95, also many times saw and heard me suddenly shrieking at 2 or 3 am and “fighting someone off.”

So did my second wife, 2002-05. It was no fun for her to be in a sound sleep and suddenly have a huge commotion rip her out of deep slumber. And of course it is scary and bewildering when one’s spouse has some secret or buried torment which they cannot explain even to themselves.

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I had been raised by my Pittsburgh-born father to be tough and shrug my troubles off.“Quit’cher whinin’” is a summation of the Pittsburgh mindset. 😉

So why did I have nightmares? I had never been in war or combat. (The Marine Corps and the country were at peace when I was in 1977-80, the post-Vietnam period.) Many combat vets do have nightmares or PTSD, “post-traumatic stress syndrome.” But they have a good reason ” they saw heads flying off, people burning alive, children lying dead or dying, and comrades who lost their eyes, testicles or legs through a bomb. But why was I of all people having nightmares? At no time in my childhood was I ever abused in any way ” psychologically, emotionally, physically or sexually. Both my parents, in fact, for all their human imperfections, were in many ways caring and responsible.

As for my family, its fortunes kept rising. We had lost almost everything in the Great Depression, including nearly losing the Ford dealership,Waddell Ford ¦.

¦but my father James ¦

..became very successful as a partner in the insurance brokerage of David, Bateman and Nugent. He had an entire floor in this building.

I remember the governor of Rhode Island, John Chafee, coming over to the house constantly.

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He had fought as an officer with the Marines in Korea, like my father, and Governor Chafee was also my father’s lawyer. I remember vaguely the Cuban Missile Crisis, when my father, then a major, was recalled from the reserves to active duty.

My maternal grandfather was then in charge of civil defense programs for the State of Rhode Island. My father was in 1968 and 1972 the chairman of the Nixon-Agnew campaign in the state, and he himself was the Republican nominee for governor in 1974. We attended Central Congregational Church, the high-society church. We were a very Establishment, connected family. My brother and I attended elite prep schools. My father took courses at the Naval War College in Newport, Rhode Island, and we ate the banquet there some Sundays ¦.

I knew that my father had high hopes for me ¦. and once found by accident in the coat closet, in a manila envelope, a confidential report about my IQ as measured by the Stanford-Binet-Wechsler test. It urged I be given a top education in view of the score and to avoid the boredom that would come from being around regular children.

Was my father then approached by some member of the military or CIA with the proposal that they take me away weekends for some “special, elite program”? I have no idea. I only know that I began having memories of my childhood after age ten, after I ran away from home. I ran eight miles without stopping, crossing from Rumford in East Providence, Rhode Island through the city of Providence to North Providence, running along the highway 146. I was not fleeing my parents but something else, and having made my point, I stopped running and asked a nice lady to call home for me. I had made my point, I was taken out of the elite prep school, and we moved to another town. It was time for a change of scenery, and I think whatever was happening ended. [See the end of this blog for more details on this.]

I only remember this, as stated above: my mother gave me once a blue pill and the whole world began swirling around my head. I ran outside and collapsed in the grass. Then I saw that vicious old man with his boots, crushing those baby birds into mush before my eyes.

And that is a classic MK-ULTRA technique.

The point is to engender such terror that the child’s personality splits, and then train him for some task his conscious mind is unaware of.

Was mine to be a puppet US senator, or a puppet president of the United States, under the control of MK-ULTRA? If so, they failed. I rebelled and left the program. Coming from a famous family, they decided perhaps that they could not just kill me.

I know it involved horrific sexual abuse, because I passed out four times when certain images surprised me, such as (twice) diagrams of male anatomy at Georgetown University, an infomercial on late-night tv on the healthy prostate, and finally during a routine medical exam to show I had no STDs (sexually transmitted diseases).

(I was dating a gal who worked at the Alexandria, Virginia Public Health Department, then on South Asaph Street, and she was worried about us getting intimate and then her getting an STD. So she asked me nicely to take the test and I went to do so.)

The doctor touched me in a private area to get a swab sample and I passed out totally and instantly while standing, not even collapsing slowly.

“Out like a light before I hit the floor,” as they say.

I “came to” five minutes later as EMTs broke open the third packet of smelling salts.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Smelling_salts “aromatic spirits of ammonia”….. The ammonia is what forces your lungs to breathe.

I will never forget the look on their faces, that of a pleasant fellow, a male with dark sideburns, and the other an attractive bottle-blonde female who looked quite concerned. I woke up with my cheek on the cold, waxed, cement floor and saw two sets of eyeballs looking at me with worry in their eyes.

I doubt they had ever been called to a doctor’s office for a patient fainting during a routine physical.

I remember also that, as with my nightmares, I was literally bathed in sweat. I mean it was streaming out of me, soaked to my socks.

After the EMTs left, I looked at the PILE of opened smelling-salt packages on the floor.

I asked the doctor, a little Indian guy, how long I had been out.

He said, nervously, “three or four minutes…..” He looked at me with wonderment, his eyes sort- of saying: “Man, what kind of secret issue you got there to trigger passing out cold for four minutes and needing a whole pile of smelling salts to bring you around? Whatever it is, you gotta deal with this.”

The more I think about it, the more I assume that he had already tried to revive me himself, as would any self-respecting, licensed, full-time medical doctor! So HE had called 911 to bring the EMTs in!

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But I did not “deal” with it via any therapy at that time because:

1) how could anyone have “done something” to the son of a powerful and feared man? ONLY SOMEONE FAR MORE POWERFUL…… and

2) the whole point of the Manchurian Candidate program is you remember nothing — not consciously. Nightmares are not technically “proof” of anything.

Who would believe me, if I even found out myself?

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In 2002 I saw two movies dealing with adults who had been abused as kids, and both changed my life, the Robin Williams indie movie “One Hour Photo”

.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vjIBX5RrG4Q

¦.and ” ˜Antwone Fisher” with Denzel Washington. (I admit: I also like Denzel as an actor.)

.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d7zXnqsFM-s

 

 

After each movie, I had an eerie feeling, as if something was moving around down in the basement of my mind.

Something that wanted OUT.

But it was still in that lock box and it still is in there today. I can only say that I know generically what it must be. The clincher was when I read a Boston Globe newspaper article about a kid who hanged himself after being molested by the infamous Catholic priest John Geoghan, who had molested 130 boys in Boston.

This brave and noble prisoner, Joseph Druce, strangled him to death ” for ruining the lives of 130 trusting Christian children ” at the maximum-security prison in Shirley, Massachusetts in 2003. Druce should get a medal. I have corresponded with Druce, who was molested himself as a kid.

I read the Globe article about the kid who had hanged himself. The Catholic church was attacking him and his family with vicious rumors and detectives going around, spreading lies that the boy and his family were gold-diggers. I suddenly felt a gigantic urge to stand up and go right out for a brisk walk on Winthrop Beach. (Photo: Boston in the background)

I am usually a very cheery guy and I shake off my problems, plus the Marines inculcate “you can handle anything.”

So I walked along in the sunny, salty air, the breeze in my face, admiring the beauty of a sparkling Massachusetts Bay.

And with a big smile on my face ” with God as my witness ” I began to sob.

My second personality was saying “Enough! No happy talk! Now you listen to ME!” Never before had I seen this other part of me, but others had seen it when I got angry and my eyes got huge and wild like a hunted beast that turns and charges the hunter.

I can only say to anyone who was in my boat, so to speak: “Get help.”

Why did I wait 49 years? My nightmares ended instantly, at least, though I still do not know what happened or who did it. My first therapist told me mine was “the worst case I have ever seen.” She did a relaxation-hypnosis technique that totally failed to calm me as she tried to revisit with me some  or any of the incidents, and I began screaming to blow the roof off the house. So I assume — or rather now I am sure — it was a highly professional, expert CIA program of the most extreme abuse.

Did I see children murdered?

Was I forced to kill a kitten or puppy, or even a human baby?

Lord God Almighty, I hope not.

But this is what these fiends in our government do ” force children into evil, making them complicit. It is no different from guys in Iraq or Afghanistan who have ended up killing women and children. I had the same PTSD as men who have come back from combat.

The fact that I can recall nothing indicates I was not supposed to ever know. But what I do know certainly suffices, knowing that the torture and rape were twisted and wrong, and I was an innocent kid. I am proud I broke free. Maybe an angel was watching over me to save me and so I would never find out.

The next form of therapy I took, cognitive behavioral therapy, does not wallow any way in what happened back then, focusing only on the here and now.

And now on to David Duke.

In my close dealings with him 1989-90 and 2006-09, I sometimes found him strangely listless and “not all there.” The brain was working, but he seemed soulless. In the summer of 2006, I discussed him with a mutual friend name Bob Hoy, who had known Duke for 25 years and had actually gotten him to enter politics in 1988. Hoy listened pensively to my story of my own repressed memories, then said suddenly:

“Let me tell you a strange story.” It was related to his then mail-order bride business connecting American bachelors and single Russian girls. Hoy was in Moscow and so was Duke, on the prowl as usual for women. “Anyway, I went over to his hotel room to meet with him one morning, and ¦ this is gonna sound strange ¦ he had no idea who he was, or who I was, or that we were in Moscow.”

“Was he drinking?”

“Oh no! Duke is not much of a drinker and it was early morning anyway. No, he was just spaced out, like in another mode or being another person, bewildered, not aware of who he was, or me, or Moscow.”

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A comrade emailed me he enjoyed the blog and told me about abuse in his own childhood. I replied:

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I am glad I deducted the MK-ULTRA thing because it drove me crazy how a US Marine officer who loved me could let someone else molest his kid. This was a man with five notches on his .38 Detective Special Smith and Wesson pistol, used in Korea, each notch from shooting a Chinese man dead in the trenches.

It has to be a program whose details are never divulged, and that exactly is the purpose of the hyper-trauma, so the kid cannot recount what has happened to him and the training is compartmentalized.

Any žnormal” rape or molestation is usually rememberable. It has to be hyper-trauma that is blocked out, and put in a lock box. The technical term is dissociation, and the concept works. I still have no idea what happened. But endless violent nightmares told me something horrible DID.

I am sorry you were never able to help your father with healing from the abuse he underwent. 57 was way too young to pass on! Maybe he is proud of you now. 😉

…..The day I ran away for ten miles without stopping

MK-ULTRA is M-ind, K-osher — Ultra-[severe torture]

Since the 1950s there has been a scientific rape-torture-traumatization government program — designed to create split personalities — called MK-ULTRA.

I am now 100% certain, having known and observed David Duke for 25 years, that both Duke and I, sons of high-ranking military officers with high government connections, were forced into it as small children, and that Duke is STILL in this program.

I escaped it by running away from home in 1964, and my parents at age ten. Then, mysteriously, our house was set on fire. https://johndenugent.com/english/english-strong-endorsement-for-my-leading-us-away-from-the-failed-white-nationalism-david-duke-and-mk-ultra-brad-griffin-and-his-judeophilia/

Excerpt:

I knew that my father had high hopes for me ¦. He was a very proud man…. Nothing he want more than successful sons, too.

I once found by accident in the coat closet, in a manila envelope, a confidential report about my IQ as measured by the Stanford-Binet-Wechsler test. It urged I be given a top education in view of the score and to avoid the boredom that would come from being around regular children.

Was my father then approached by some member of the military or CIA with the proposal that they take me away weekends for some “special, elite program”?

I already know my father was involved with something very murky in WWII. …. The Japanese would do terrible things to captured, live US Marines.

This is a screenshot of the first episode of the HBO-Tom Hanks series “The Pacific” about the Marines fighting the Japanese in WWII.

The Marine was found tied to a tree….. I’ll leave out the other details.

The troops file past his body as the sergeant warns “This is what the Japs do to you if they capture you.”

Btw, the superb movie “the Thin Red Line” has a scene where US Army soldiers on Guadalcanal come across the body of a fellow American soldier after the Japs got through with him.

If any WWII Pacific vet says “God, how we hated the Japs,” you will know why.

Well, my father called me once in 2000 from Vero Beach, Florida, and said, to my shock, quite “sloshed”:

“I’m going to tell you what went on in the Philippines…. and then you will UNDERSTAND… THEN you will UNDERSTAND!”

I was stunned. But then he thought better of it, and said: “…but not tonight.”

Click.

He was involved in….something. I am certain it was revenge torture-killings. He said there was a “special unit.” 🙁

So my father was already one who would say yes to secret activities in a special unit.

What they did to me I have no idea. (Maybe thank God.)

I only know that I began having memories of my childhood after age ten, after I ran away from home. I ran eight miles without stopping, crossing from Rumford in East Providence, Rhode island through the city of Providence to North Providence, running along the highway 146.

I was not fleeing my parents but something else, and having made my point, I stopped running and asked a nice lady to call home for me.

I was taken out of the elite prep school, and we moved to another town. It was time for a change of scenery, and I think whatever was happening must have ended.

I ran for miles without stopping (being then, as now, in exceptional physical shape; I set a track record at my private school, Moses Brown), from Rumford, Rhode Island (on the right) through downtown Providence to North Providence.

The house I ran from, 17 Huntington Drive, Rumford , Rhode Island. Shortly after, it was gutted by a mysterious fire.

I ran past my father’s skyscraper on the right, where he eventually leased the entire floor and had 70 employees.

I ran past the Rhode Island State House.

¦and up Route 146 toward North Providence ¦ turning left onto Mineral Spring Avenue, the route to my trusted grandparents’ house.

I only remember this, as stated above: my mother gave me once a blue pill and the whole world began swirling around my head. I ran outside and collapsed in the grass. then I saw that vicious old man with his boots, crushing those baby birds into mush before my eyes. And that is aclassic MK-ULTRA technique.

The point is to engender such terror that the child’s personality splits, and then train him for some task his conscious mind is unaware of.

Was mine to be a puppet US senator, or a puppet president of the United States, under the control of MK-ULTRA? Was I to be what Trump is now?

If so, they failed. I rebelled and left the program. Coming from a famous family, they decided perhaps that they could not just kill me.

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Why did they choose me?

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Two final anecdotes:

I always thought it strange that my late brother (died at 60 in 2019) would incessantly jiggle his right knee and twirl the hair on the top of his head. He is not crazy at all, no more than I am, but a very funny, charismatic, likable college graduate who studied business. He said to me once, tight-lipped, when I asked him if he ever had nightmares:

“Nightmares? All the time!” But he is as tight-lipped as…well…a Manchurian Candidate?

(Todd is wearing a baseball cap and hoisting a brew; cute babes are always around Todd. 😉 )

In 1999 I flew to Austria to court yet another Tyrolean gal as my first wife had been. I had been chatting her up online and we had sort-of hit it off. She was in Wörgl [photo] and worked at a chemical factory in Kundl.

She asked me once: “My mother was watching you, and watching your hands. Do you know your hands tremble all the time? She says maybe you are a junkie. So I have to ask you: Are you on drugs?”

No, my dear, I was not.

But that one question as to why my hands shook began to awaken me to the unspeakable crimes against some of the best, most elite, most nordic white children that are committed by the psychopathic and monstrous Talmudic Jews.

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……There must be healing

The atmosphere of the earth is filling up with pain.

It is time for a new religion to save Aryans from the Jews, and enlist other humans in our struggle so they to can live decent lives.

The Valhalla Temple in Germany

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…..Reaction of a comrade

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US prison Abu Ghraib brings “IRAQI FREEDOM”

Ernst Zündel experienced this in a Pigeon Forge, Tennessee jail before he was expelled to Canada!

Good old Israeli advisors at Abu Ghraib

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Btw, oh my God, it just occurred to me — maybe — why this is why Angela Merkel has that first name…..the German woman bringing hordes of muslim rapist-killers into her own country, even thogh it is resulting in a disaster at the polls for her own party and her reputation.

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Anyway, then, facing an unprecedented failure of their ultra-torture program to succeed (and it is “ultra-torture” because it is so bad your brain cannot bear to think about it, and just locks it away in a separate personality, called now “dissociation”) they had to face the fact that for reasons of my family’s prominence (and maybe a subtle factor of divine protection) they needed to hold back from simply rubbing me out as they might usually do.

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Now, had I been a kid from the rough side of Chelsea or Lowell (towns near Boston) , or like the troubled white working-class families families depicted in the excellent Clint Eastwood movie “Mystic,” I would have just “disappeared” and become yet another missing child report.

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