UPDATED The need is now for a strengthening Aryan religion; Margi’s final words

September 14, 2022 John de Nugent English 15

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Margi in 2019 after chemo and 34 sessions of radiation with her fire-red throat; we had tried natural anti-cancer methods but the tumor, very suspiciously to me, was “unusually aggressive.” 
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From a Joe S.:

Dear Mr. John de Nugent,

My condolences. I’m sorry your wife passed away. You were both fortunate to have one another. You always took good care of your wife — I always admired you for how good you were to your wife. May she Rest In Peace, Amen.

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A German comrade wrote me:
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It is so unjust that Margie had to suffer so much during her last years. Why do good people have to suffer so much, while evil creatures have such a good life?
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My answer:
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My religion will answer your justified and burning questions. It is ready, but I waited for Margi to either recover from cancer (my real goal, and I worked hard for it) or to pass on.
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I dreaded the idea of brainwashed hospital staff, nurses, doctors and pharmacists mistreating her AFTER my Aryan religion has begun to be proclaimed…..and put forward by the reincarnation of the hated Adolf Hitler no less, who killed six trillion jews! 😉 And the newspapers would have hastened to add that she too was an “active Nazi”!
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…..To a donor who is a Christian, who asked what my plans were  now that Margi is gone.

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Creating a new religion borrowing heavily from Christ and His actual teachings — for our race in its final life-and.-death struggle with the jews and their goyish minions.
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Ernest Hemingway said.”Cowardice comes from a lack of love, or from not enough love.”
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Love is indeed the answer, and also the key to the real Jesus.
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Having seen from up close the flourishing and happiness of the Jehovah’s Witnesess, the Mormons, the Amish, and, up here, the Apostolic Lutherans, with their huge, blond families (and no tv, movies or rock music), I realized long ago, by 1984, that we need ore than anyting else an authentic white religion that is absolutely credible.
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What I saw in the Marines and even more so my father before me, a veteran of WWII and Korea, was that the cultural-Christian veneer most people have is insufficient to prevent the terrible fear, the terror, of approaching death, which wrongful feeling leads indirectly to them being gripped by cowardice.
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The death of the medic Wade (from “Saving Private Ryan”) — as brave as these men are, death is something dreadful to them, because Churchianity is simply not entirely credible. My own father, a combat veteran of two wars, confided in my mother, and he was a Presbyterian Church elder: “After Korea I stopped believing in God.”
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Crying and calling out for his momma (common even when supposed Christians die on the battlefield) is a sign this guy is totally terrified. Why, if he really believed?

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I do not believe, as the Witnesses do and Early Judaism did, as reflected by much of the Old Testament, that when you die you are dead until God reawakens (resurrects) you.
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I believe that life goes on immediately, and that Margi watches over me while joyfully greeting her many dear relatives, and then watching a kind of video of the key scenes in her life so she can ponder her mistakes and be proud of her many wonderful deeds as well. (Now I am choking up again.)
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There is massive evidence for this survival after death.
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Not sure if you ever saw the wonderful, romantic movie “Ghost” with Patrick Swayze and Demi Moore. this is not evidence bzut a good depiction of things.
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There is a scene where Swayze, who had been murdered in a plot by a “friend” (played by the jewish actor Tony Goldwyn, who often played scheming villains — how appropriate) who had the hots for his wife, Demi, and got Swayze killed in a street robbery that was really a “hit.”
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Swayze, on the other side, learns to move light objects in our world to send messages to his wife and to warn her about Goldwyn.
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Well, something like this happened yesterday where Margi moved something to a totally unexpected place to send me a message.
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I had a really bad day Monday when my wife suddenly left me (in the physical world). I must have cried and sobbed twenty times. Yesterday, maybe six times.  Today, not at all. I guess I did want Margi to see how much she meant to me. As strong as I am, I decided it was okay to cry. They say that souls tarry among us for three days or more, partly to hear and learn from what people say about them and how they feel.
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A minister once said: “You led a good life if people are still crying about losing you a week or a month after your death. But with so many people, you are over it in twenty minutes. They were your average selfish person, and really nothing special.”
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The more I read tributes to her from comrades, seeing her in a golden light, and Margi did have a golden heart, for all her little flaws, the more I cracked up.
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To lose my soul mate, and I fell instantly in love with her on, yes, April 20, 2005 at the Barnes Review magazine office, has been like my right arm and leg being ripped off and blood oozing out onto the floor.
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And I missed too how much of an asset she was to me, how men and women both adored her.
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I hear stories every day from real white people about deceased loved ones making known their presence and their loving watch over their spouse on this side. Well, I had one yesterday.
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But first, the truth is that toward the end it was terrible, and Margi said to me two things.
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She put her dainty, warm, feminine hand on my forearm and said, looking right at me with her huge blue eyes, “You are my hero.”
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And then she said: “I hate being a burden on you. I am so weak. I can’t eat; I can’t sing; I can’t play the piano;  all I can do is sit here and bug you. If I accidentally removed this oxygen line, my oxygen would fall to 72%, and I would go into a coma and die.”
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Every time I helped her to her feet, she would gently fall into my arms to get a deep hug from her man. 😉 And I loved giving her those hugs.
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The night before she died, Margi then said:

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“I feel that tomorrow I am going to pass over.

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And Uwe spoke to me.”
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Uwe was a nice, sweet little guy in Rosian, Saxony-Anhalt, Germany, a muscular little runt in his thirties (Margi was thirty years older) who had fallen head-over-heels in love with my red-haired beauty when she visited there in 2012.
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It never mattered to these smitten guys that she already had someone. 😉
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Brain-damaged from a motorcycle accident, and having lost his career when West Germany took over East Germany (and many people were let go), he was “not in her league,” as they say, and in no way a match for her — even if she had not been mine.
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But he was “hopelessly devoted” to her, and he in a way died of a broken heart from her saying no. He then died about five years ago, surrounded by schnaps bottles. 🙁
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Yeah, Margi was a woman who could enthrall any man without even trying. 😉
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So I asked Margi what Uwe had “said.”
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She looked at me with those big blue peepers, and said:
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He said:

“Ich habe dich so vermisst.”

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(“I have missed you so much.”)

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Anyway, I went about my grim post-mortem tasks yesterday and today.
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Part of it was fending off the local funeral director, who wants $3,400 I do not have for a cremation, or $4,000 for a cremation and service.  (This is another topic I will broach with my readers and supporters soon.)
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And I stripped the bed and washed with bleach the sheets and pillow cases, spotted on one half with poor Margi’s vomit, feces, urine and blood 🙁 …. the visible symbols of her four-year martyrdom.
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I also washed her little green throw rug that was for her feet when she got up.
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I put the clean sheets and pillowcases right back on…. Those sheets are sacred to me, and we made sweet love just two nights before her death.
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Then I put my favorite navy-blue Georgetown University blanket on top of the bed.
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Last night I went up to bed alone in that big and empty bed.
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And there was something strange, lying on the green rug on the floor.
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The context is that I had had to take Margi six or seven times a day for weeks to the bathroom, walking backwards like Ginger Rogers dancing with Fred Astaire. Then I lifted her afterward at 90 pounds off the toilet seat each time onto her feet.
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I did the Ginger Rogers part of walking backwards with love each time, recalling the famous anecdote where someone asked Ginger:
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What was it like dancing with Fred Astaire?”
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Ginger answered: “Listen, I did every step Fred did, but backwards and in high heels!” 😉
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Well, now, what did I see on the floor of the master bedroom?
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It was, well, it was one of Margi’s adult undergarments, an adult diaper, with some yellow in it.
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How did it get from the wastebasket in the upstairs bathroom to the rug by her bedside? I sure didn’t put it there!
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It symbolized to me Margi saying:
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“John, don’t forget how hard it got to be for me, and for us both at the end. It was anything but glamorous. Be happy our nightmare is over, my love. Don’t idealize how it was caring for me for four years.
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It was frustrating for us both; it was boring; I hated becoming ever more helpless.
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Margi gardening a week ago with her oxygen tank
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the final harvest
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Yes, we both were happy to have each other, but basically it was a miserable situation, and at the end I had no more life at all. I was just existing.
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Now go and spread your wings, my beloved, and soar for us all, my love.
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Make me happy by winning for our race — as I watch forever over you and your friends.”
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I never saw Margi more noble and selfless than at the end. Her suffering and my care made her more grateful and kind than ever before.
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…..an email I wrote back in 2006

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—– Forwarded message —–
From: John de Nugent <john_denugent@yahoo.com>
To: “roy[]@hotmail.com” <roy[]@hotmail.com>
Sent: Sunday, 4 June 2006 at 04:51:47 pm GMT-4
Subject: religion for the big questions of life
Dear Roy,
Yes, we need a religion, as do all humans. Humans are religious animals, but also intellIgent animals, that ask important questions only religons offer answers to:
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— Why am I here?
— What happens to me when I die?
— Why is life a bitch?
— Why do I say one thing and do another, and break all my resolutions?
— Will the earth always be ruled by evil?
— Does anybody “out there” love me?
— Is there any higher purpose?
— How can I feel better about myself, or my homely nose? 🙂
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Our religion must be similar to Unitarians in these ways:
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— intelligent,
— minimalist as to dogma,
— heavy not with outlandish assertions but with spiritual awe and feeling (like the wonderful German painting which our friend and comrade Pedro Varela utilized for the cover of his Revolutionary Ethics book, showing a man standing at a mountain ledge peering at a world of Alps and clouds).
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and most categorically without forcing any idées fixes, semitic-style, on our Nordic peoples.
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Most of all, any vibrant religion must be full of friendships and active, real expressions of love and affection, both verbal and by deeds, and accord consolations to the sick, to the weary and depressed, so that we feel that we all are at all times in our lives LOVED, and thus all the virtues of the intact old Großfamilie of our Cro-Magnon ancestors wil be reborn that clan feelingthat ou are part of a deeply caring and brave community.
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In actuality, Vedanta (whence the Bhagavad Gita) is designed for intellectual and educated persons, with NO gods or goddesses, just working lovingly on one’s karma in a noble lifestyle, being a vessel for greater energies. Edel sei der Mensch, hilfreich und gut. (Goethe): “Noble be a man, helpful and good.”
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One of Vedanta’s beauties is it is not some newfangled religion and a Notion-by-Nugent. (What IS new is how I integrate it with Nat. Soc., in my likewise new form of that political world-view.)
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Another beauty of Vedanta, which I seriously studied under a Brahman, is that is it is not escapist with respect to the earth as are the three semitic dogmas. The way we leave this world and its society at our transition or death, leaving it ramshackle or instead recovering, that is exactly how how we deserve to find it again and will find it again when we return here, and slackers will NOT incarnate into any ideal society they have not lifted a finger to help build, oder gar behinderte. No popping off to Cloud Cuckoo Land, semite-like, for harp lessons on clouds or for the outrageous Neanderthal vision of the 72 virgins!
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In Vedanta, the between-lives phase is merely a time for review–before we come right back down to the world of dense physical reality to practice what we preach. The earth is our home in Vedanta, until we deserve to completely graduate off it, and even then, out of love for our race, family and friends, many who have finally earned the right to graduate from this low planet come back again just to serve thier friends, with noble mission, as avatars, such as a lowly corporal from Brown River-Meadow.
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Another strong reason to embrace this faith is that ZOG will not see it as a threat. They think that esoterism will lead to only a tiny sect, à la Matt Koehl’s New Order. Maybe to a tiny sect like Christianity with one billion adherents. Emoji
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I return to my main point: a movement without women is perforce a movement without religion. No religion, no women, no movement. Just males, and many of them cranks. Voilà ma diagnose du problème.
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But a new religion must be organic, and founded on a bedrock of sincere, deep conviction based on daily experience. And as for the previously dominant religion in Europe, the one using the pagan cross, OUR cross, as its symbol, we can stand with Thomas Carlyle:
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The old faith cannot perish until that which helps mankind vitally be brought forth into the new faith.
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Love, compassion, forgiveness, confession of wrongs and the vow to change and grown up, becoming selfless and a great soul, and brotherhood — these beautiful, yin, feminine-sector values are essential to happiness for all persons of both genders, whatever the juvenile male in us may think in our superannuated brashness and testosterone-driven obsessions. Such graces must be brought forward from “Christianity” ( = Saulianity), which did NOT invent them but now holds a bogus patent on them.
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Man doth not live by Sleipnir cartoons, Kampfslogans and head bandages alone! 🙂 With BOTH the fierce, manly virtues of struggle and the yin wellings of the generous heart, and the practical governmental-societal programs of NS, as now reformed in my vision, we then have a complete, alternate way of life to offer, a microcosm of a future world for all, and the successes of the then NS in the form of 1933-45 can be used for a convincing reference as more and more afflicted whites umdenken with our help in this world of downfall. So we need to feed both the outer and the inner man, the man starving for food and a job and the man starvintg for meaningand love. LOVE AND WORK, these are the sacred concepts of yin and yang in a nutshell.
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Finally, only a religion can withstand murderous persecution waves, fire, sword and dungeon. Only a religion will persist through the Katakombenzeit. And, for Aryans, only an Aryan religion, because the next great wave of onslaught by ZOG may yet become more terrible than we can imagine.
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Look, by contrast to the above ideals, at the self-absorbed David Irving, with whom so many, including myself, have had painful experience. His little self-interest told him to recant on the Holycost; now THERE is a man without a religion except himself.
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And he has proved it on many occasions before his recantation. He stood up me and my group who had driven 100 miles to see him so he could do a five-minute interview with the BBC. For his Allmighty Ich. Here is a man that Providence endowed with every wonderful gift, including incredibly good books, but he throws it away in his dealings with his fellow man, yes, even with his friendsand supporters!
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I just saw an interview with him on SkyNews–his statements are now all over the place. The man has NO anchor for his soul or his mouth–what a tragedy! Grand intellect and yet no moral moorings in the storm.
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The jews have basically achieved control over almost everything and almost everyone because the majority are cowards, which means they lack love.
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We will only win when we tap, full-hearted, into the divine powers  in the universe, God’s universe.
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As AH said, with intellect alone, with philosophy alone, we will never bestir the masses and beat the jew enemy.
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Hitler, filmmaker Leni Riefenstahl, and he discusses the coming religion

 

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And now with my love’s help in the beyond, I will start the religion for our earthly and celestial salvation.
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Did you know that on the other side we are all age 30 and at our peak of beauty and fitness, neither a kid nor old and gray?
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Margi in 2014 in the Porcupine Mountains State Park overlooking Lake Superior, my goddess, my queen. Until we meet again,mylove, victorious and proud that we both used our incarnations wisely to grow through suffering and change to a higher life…..
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She lives and watches over us all. We are here on this earth to fight and to win.
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15 Comments

  1. Il mio cuore è a pezzi…
    Non posso dimostrarti la mia sofferenza…
    Ho sperato fino alla fine.
    Con tutte le mie forze.
    Ero ottimista, non lo sono mai.
    Evidentemente questa dimensione porta solo dolore…
    Una dimensione infernale che non ci appartiene…
    Vi amo…infinitamente.
    Io sono con te.Sempre.E lei con noi.

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  2. The deceased often also appear directly visually. They even come for messages. The deceased ex-husband (of my now also deceased aunt) rang the doorbell and left greetings for her at the door. Another was just present, present in the restaurant. Then there is the drawing attention to oneself, the many signs, the rattling of mailbox lids, etc.

    According to Seth, the visual images are supposed to be sometimes blurred, because the deceased are neurologically no longer centered in the physical system and therefore do not have such great control over the atomic structures, however, as is also evident with John de Nugent and Margei, it is enough to move (psychokinesis) or teleport objects. Very many people have experiences of this kind, but do not dare to speak about it. We are in the post-materialistic age.

    “Did you know that on the other side we are all age 30 and at our peak of beauty and fitness, neither a kid nor old and gray?” In the Seth material of Jane Roberts it is stated that consciousnesses, when they meet with others in the hereafter (re-encounter) visually mostly choose their body of that time (respective reincarnation body) etc.; generally freedom of choice is supposed to prevail, however, many would also choose a more mature body, which represents the peak of their spiritual cognition phase (formulated analogously).

    Jane Roberts had transcribed a book by William James in the 1970s, I feel it is authentic, a book he wrote after his death, you can often get it for $5, used, paperback edition. It is great! James gives detailed and convincing descriptions and the writing and language style and content quality are tpyical for William James, he also writes about communicating with the deceased. “The Afterdeath Journal of an American Philosopher.” “The World View of William James,” Jane Roberts, Prentice Hall, February 1979, 241 pages.

    You can listen to the entire book with all chapters as an audio book on Youtube or download it for free and listen to it piece by piece, for example, during a nap: Youtube channel “Tim Hart Hart”, playlist “The Afterdeath Journal of an American Philosopher”,[1] 18 videos. Video #1.[2] It is absolutely worth reading/listening to, I recommend it to every person!

    Margi already has a high level of spiritual development, so she will act like an amplifier from the other side, i.e. great telepathic communication breakthroughs etc. will happen regularly. As sad as it is and as easy as it is to say it (as an outsider): In the present situation lies a huge chance to unfold the inner potential immeasurably-accelerated, because the intimate connection strengthens the communications and the perceptions accordingly: the longing for communication with the beloved partner will immeasurably accelerate the unfolding of the corresponding inner abilities.
    All the questions Margi asked herself about the inner structures of reality she can now explore from the other side and share the results with John.

    And the geophysical conditions are also excellent, Seth once said that living by great lakes is a prerequisite for the unfolding of the inner faculties and that the Great Lakes Area is one of the (particularly strong) coordination point areas (through which the physical realization of events occurs).

    Footnotes:

    [1] Playlist “The Afterdeath Journal of an American Philosopher”, Channel “Tim Hart Hart” (American English Native Speaker),
    https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLPDTOFbrYdqCclVz-Fv8gJ3vU7-hYbmYd

    [2] “Afterdeath Journal – Introduction – Jane Roberts + Seth”,
    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PJZQU2Y8Al4&list=PLPDTOFbrYdqCclVz-Fv8gJ3vU7-hYbmYd&index=1

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    In German: Anmerkungen zur Kommunikation mit Verstorbenen

    Die Verstorbenen erscheinen oft auch direkt visuell. Sie kommen sogar für Mitteilungen. Der verstorbene Ex-Mann (meiner nun ebenfalls verstorbenen Tante) klingelte und ließ ihr an der Türe Grüße ausrichten. Ein anderer war in der Gaststätte einfach nur präsent, anwesend. Dann gibt es das auf sich Aufmerksam machen, die vielen Zeichen, das Klappern von Briefkastendeckeln etc.

    Laut Seth sollen die visuellen Abbilder manchmal unscharf sein, weil die Verstorbenen neurologisch nicht mehr im physischen System zentriert sind und daher nicht mehr so große Kontrolle über die atomaren Strukturen haben, jedoch reicht es, wie auch bei John de Nugent und Margei ersichtlich, zum Bewegen (Psychokinese) oder Teleportieren von Gegenständen. Sehr viele Menschen haben Erfahrungen dieser Art, trauen sich jedoch nicht, darüber zu sprechen. Wir befinden uns im postmaterialistischen Zeitalter.

    “Did you know that on the other side we are all age 30 and at our peak of beauty and fitness, neither a kid nor old and gray?” Im Seth-Material von Jane Roberts steht, daß sich Bewußtseine, wenn sie sich mit anderen im Jenseits treffen (Wiederbegegnung) visuell meist ihren damaligen Körper (jeweiliger Reinkarnationskörper) etc. wählen; generell soll Wahlfreiheit herrschen, jedoch würden viele auch einen reiferen Körper wählen, der den Höhepunkt ihrer geistigen Erkenntnisphase repräsentiert (sinngemäß formuliert).

    Jane Roberts hatte in den 1970ern ein Buch von William James transkribiert, ich fühle, daß es authentisch ist, ein Buch, das er nach seinem Tode geschrieben hat, man bekommt es schon oft für 5 Dollar, gebraucht, Taschenbuchausgabe. Es ist großartig! James gibt detaillierte und überzeugende Beschreibungen und der Schreib- und Sprachstil und die inhaltliche Qualität sind tpyisch für William James, er schreibt auch über die Kommunikation mit Verstorbenen. “The Afterdeath Journal of an American Philosopher.” “The World View of William James”, Jane Roberts, Prentice Hall, Februar 1979, 241 Seiten.

    Man kann das gesamte Buch mit allen Kapiteln als Hörbuch auf Youtube hören bzw. kostenlos herunterladen und sich beispielsweise während eines Nickerchens Stück für Stück anhören: Youtube-Kanal “Tim Hart Hart”, Playlist “The Afterdeath Journal of an American Philosopher”,[1] 18 Videos. Video Nr. 1.[2] Es ist absolut lesenswert/hörenswert, ich kann es jedem Menschen empfehlen!

    Margi hat bereits einen hohen spirituellen Entwicklungsgrad, sie wird daher wie ein Verstärker von der anderen Seite aus wirken, d.h. es werden regelmäßig große telepathische Kommunikationsdurchbrühe etc. erfolgen. So traurig es ist und so leicht dahergesagt es ist (als Außenstehender): In der jetzigen Situation liegt eine riesige Chance, um das innere Potential unermeßlich-beschleunigt zu entfalten, denn die innige Verbundenheit verstärkt die Kommunikationen und die Wahrnehmungen entsprechend: Die Sehnsucht nach Kommunikation mit dem geliebten Partner wird die Entfaltung der entsprechenden inneren Fähigkeiten unermeßlich beschleunigen.
    All die Fragen, die sich Margi über die inneren Wirklichkeitsstrukturen stellte kann sie nun von der anderen Seite aus erforschen und die Ergebnisse John mitteilen.

    Und die geophysikalischen Voraussetzungen sind ebenfalls ausgezeichnet, Seth sagte mal, daß das Leben an großen Seen eine Voraussetzung sei für die Entfaltung der inneren Fähigkeiten und daß die Great-Lakes-Area zu den (besonders starken) Koordinationspunkt-Bereichen (über welche die physische Verwirklichung von Ereignissen erfolgt) gehört.

    Fußnoten:

    [1] Playlist “The Afterdeath Journal of an American Philosopher”, Kanal “Tim Hart Hart” (American English Native Speaker),
    https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLPDTOFbrYdqCclVz-Fv8gJ3vU7-hYbmYd

    [2] “Afterdeath Journal – Introduction – Jane Roberts + Seth”,
    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PJZQU2Y8Al4&list=PLPDTOFbrYdqCclVz-Fv8gJ3vU7-hYbmYd&index=1

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    • Thank you very much, dear comrade…..as always!

      I read William James’ famous The Varieties of Religious Experience.

      lWhat an outstanding writer, perceptive psychologidt, as well as Harvard professor. I will look into this book! 🙂

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  3. For that you know the contents of the chapters, you then can look up the respective Youtube-Chapter-Video:

    INTRODUCTION:
    1. Front-Door People, Back-Door People, and World Views
    2. Seth on William James and the Affiliations of Consciousness
    3. How This Book Happened and the Webs of Consciousness

    [Chapters:]

    1. A General Introduction to My Interests and Times
    2. Depression, Precognition, and the Dynamics of Creativity
    3. Freud, Jung, and Protestantism
    4. What Does Truth Mean? Science and Religion
    5. Mind and Medicine
    6. The Nature of Percepetion, Consciousness, and the Gifted Amateur
    7. Afterdeath Environment, “Possession,”, Apparitions, and States of Mind
    8. Views of the World From a Balcony Seat
    9. The “Machine-Man,” Survival, and Afterdeath Communications
    10. Man and His Times, Reincarnation, the Athmospheric Presence and Knowing Light
    11. The Divine Mood
    12. A Master Language and a “School” for Philosophers
    13. Biological Faith and Nature’s Source
    14. On Melancholy
    15. Faith and Coincidence
    16. Faith’s Visions

    EPILOGUE

    INDEX

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  4. John,

    I’m very sorry to hear of your loss. I lost my Mom a few years ago after having been her unemployed, primary in-home caregiver for 16 years, while Alzheimer’s slowly killed her.
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    I lost everything in the process, including all of my savings, my 401K, my house to foreclosure, and also had to declare bankruptcy due to over $30,000 in credit card debt in paying for her medical bills, but I’d do it all over again, because she was my Mom, and I was her only son.
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    So I have some idea of what you’re going through. We are in this world to suffer, and carry on the best we can.
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    Here a few songs that make me think of my Mom, and “get me right in the feels,” as Anglin would say:
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    Dolly Parton – “I Will Always Love You” (the original version):
    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lKsQR72HY0s
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    Samuel Barber – “Agnus Dei” (used in the movie “Platoon”):
    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AiuC_CaObbI
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    “The Mission” Theme – Gabriel’s Oboe (Ennio Morricone):
    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ixby9BzJfEo

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    • Thank you, brother Phil.

      I am glad to say that I have gotten gratifying recognition from both locals and also my online readers and supporters for my four years of constant care for Margi. I felt I had no moral choice from God but to be an exemplary husband even if it delayed my other projects– and also no PR choice (imagine if I had let her simply die of cancer!!!) — not to mention no wiggle room either in my heart, which loved that woman and made it easy to help her patiently in every way. People saw us going about town with her on my arm and me pulling her oxygen tank, and they smiled, touched. It was all part of the Divine Plan, it was me living out what I preach, to humbly serve.

      Moving now to wrap the final Margi things up here…. giving her beautiful though bought-used clothes away.. [] and the two nice identical twins who barmaided at the Shamrock, [] and [], will get first dibs, the the rest goes to St. Vincent’s.

      The emotional nightmare for me is now a bit more manageable.

      I spoke by phone with Margi’s half-brother [] and her aunt, M[].

      Eckhart Tolle’s writings have helped me to accept reality, to really face it, and then be so very grateful that Margi is free from pain and misery, and reunited with her wonderful family members, and with her Princess, and now I am free too.

      Princess died a few months back of cancer, too:

      But I mean not free to go out on dates, but free to serve the world that needs my contribution on the racial and jewish realities, and now I can finally give it in full.

      It is now certain that things will get much worse…..I wonder what will happen or ensue over time should there indeed be a nationwide rail strike with the economy and supply chains already frayed.

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  6. The photo with Princess and Margi is so touching. It says everything about their relationship and such relationships outlast physical death and last.

    According to Seth, animals are supposed to have vitality of their own, but they are supposed to be very dependent, vitality-wise, on the people they are emotionally connected to.

    “So I asked Margi what Uwe had ‘said.’ “. I know an American woman who volunteered in a palliative home. Apparently, the unfolding of telepathic abilities (or inner perceptive abilities) often accelerates shortly before death. The acquaintance spoke in pure thought communication with a hospice resident and he answered her immediately and precisely in verbal language to her purely thought questions.

    John, be sure to write a (dream) diary! And if it is only short key words, but keep in a journal and in a dream diary in key words what you have experienced and what you have brought into experience, also possible flashes of inspiration: Sometimes you understand the meaning of a dream communication/dream experience only months later. Seth speaks of dual-hybrid constructs because in dreams symbols of both the outer world and the inner world are used.

    It would be nice if you would continue the gardening, even if it is only on a smaller scale.

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    In German: Das Foto mit Margi und Princess

    Das Foto mit Princess und Margi ist so berührend, es sagt alles aus über ihre Beziehung und solche Beziehungen überdauern den physischen Tod und halten an.

    Laut Seth sollen Tiere zwar eine Eigenvitalität haben, sie sollen vitalitätsmäßig jedoch sehr abhängig von den Menschen sein, mit denen sie gefühlsmäßig verbunden sind.

    “So I asked Margi what Uwe had “said.” “. Ich kenne eine Amerikanerin, die in einem Palliativ-Heim ehrenamtlich arbeitete. Offensichtlich beschleunigt sich häufig die Entfaltung telepathischer Fähigkeiten (bzw. innerer Wahrnehmungsfähigkeiten) kurz vor dem Tode. Die Bekannte sprach in reiner Gedankenkommunikation mit einem Sterbeheimbewohner und er antwortete ihr unmittelbar und präzise in verbaler Sprache auf ihre rein gedanklich gestellten Fragen.

    John, schreiben Sie unbedingt ein (Traum)Tagebuch! Und wenn es nur kurze Stichworte sind, aber halten Sie stichwortartig in einem Tagebuch und in einem Traumtagebuch das Erlebte und in Erfahrung gebrachte fest, auch eventuelle Geistesblitze: Manchmal versteht man die Bedeutung einer Traumkommunikation/Traumerfahrung erst Monate später. Seth spricht von Dual-Hybrid-Konstruktionen, weil in Träumen sowohl Symbole der Außenwelt als auch der Innenwelt verwendet werden.

    Es wäre schön, wenn sie das Gärtnern fortsetzen würden, auch wenn es nur im kleineren Rahmen geschehen sollte.

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  7. This shows me how much German I have lost. I took German in high school and my freshman year in colllege, to the point of making myself understood in Munich and Zurich.

    Aber ohne Gelegenheis zum Ueben, habe ich viel vergessen.

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