….Jim Rizoli interviews me on the passing of my wife Margi
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This was a very touching conversation. When my grandfather was on his deathbed, he said his friends were there, calling him. He named some of them, just like Margi did. That’s very mysterious isn’t it? Where are they now? Purgatory? Heaven? There could be other possibilities.
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Well… we’ll find out some day.
God bless you John, stay
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….Coping with massive grief
I can tell you that with such deep spiritual truths such as are found in the video below by the impressive Eckhart Tolle, I was able to survive both severe grief after Margi’s death on the twelfth, 13 days ago, which very suddenly ended a mostly very good, seventeen-year relationship, and also a sudden spike in stroke-level hypertension (even 216/121!), which represented the culmination of months of exhausting 20-hour days caring for my sweet wife.
Before Tolle, I found myself grieving and crying 20 times on the first day …. Grief can be a killer.
After Tolle:
Enlightenment means not permanent happiness (which is absolutely impossible on this planet that is Earth!) but that you enjoy the good things twice as much when they happen –you feel real gratitude for them, too — and the bad things, the tragedies, hurt you a whole lot less.
Take more pleasure in things, and feel less pain.
This is a no tooth fairy, but real spirituality — for real people — in the real world as it is.
In the coming times, those who can wade through horrors and not crack up will win.
I just proved it, once again.
I was told I could end up with something worse than death, with a stroke that incapacitates me, and then I end up drooling for a year or two in some miserable nursing home.
Therefore, I got a GRIP on both my feelings and thoughts… because I owe it to you to survive and launch the new faith, and I feel honor-bound toward our whole race and to my warrior queen, now watching over me and wanting, finally, a true white victory!
Fuck’em all
On Election Day in 2020
Great to see John again…Sorry to hear about Margi, not many women are aware like she was…
John, your symptoms (HBP and glaucoma) are usually nutrition related…John STOP dwelling on your minor health symptoms….
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This was an incredibly sad interview. Maybe we can set up a Go-Fund-Me page for John.
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Thanks for this show, Jim!
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It took 45 minutes before we could even do this show because of mysterious technical difficulties, and even then the sound was weird whenever I talked. I am going to publish a transcript and translate it as well into French and German.
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Sorry to hear of your loss John. The best way to get your blood pressure down John is to not eat solid food for a couple of days and drink tea, coffee, or water, without milk or sugar, and reduce your sodium intake.
If you want some advice just ask. Been there done that as they say. Meantime, take it easy and slowly.
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Thanks, comrade. You can write me your advice at john_denugent@yahoo.com or avatardah@protonmail.com 🙂
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I’m very sorry for your loss John. Condolences God be with you.
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I am deeply sorry for your loss John, I still can’t believe Margi passed away. May she rest in peace.